Khoyi Khoyi Si Hoon Main
I am feeling lost

Kyun Yeh Dil Ka Haal Hai
Don’t know why my heart feels this way

Dhundli Saari Khwaab Hai
Every dream became dull

Uljha Har Khayaal Hai
Every thought is shattered

Saari Kaliyan Murjha Gayi
Every blossom have withered

Rang Unke, Yaadon Mein Reh Gaye
Now their colour lives only in memory

Saare Gharaande Reth Ke
Every sand castle I built

Lehrein Aaye, Lehron Mein Beh Gaye
The waves came, and my castles washed away with them

Raah Mein, Kal Kitni Chirag The
Last night there were many lamps in the street

Saamne Kal, Phoolon Ki Bhaag Thi
Yesterday there was a garden in front of me

Kisse Kahun ? Kaun Hai Jo Sune ?
To whom should I tell ? Who is there to listen

Kaante Hi Kyun Maine Hai Chune
Why did I choose only the thorns

Sapne Mere Kyun Hai Kho Gaye
Why did I lose my dreams

Jaage Hai Kyun Dil Mein Gumm Naye
Why new pain is awakening in my heart

Kya Kahun Kyun Yeh Dil Udhas Hai
What should I tell, why my heart is sad

Ab Koi Door Hai Na Paas Hai
Now noone is near to me nor far

Choo Le Jo Dil, Woh Baatein Ab Kahan
Where are the words that touched my heart

Woh Din Kahan, Raatein Ab Kahan
Where are those days and nights

Jo Bhi Dhakhal Hai, Ab Khawab Sa
Now everything ducks away like dreams

Ab Dil Mera Hai Betaab Sa
My heart is restless now

Aisha

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Getting slightly fed up now…. ’slightly’ being the lenient word. Still haven’t got a job and losing the energy to even apply. I think I need to re-think my options. Recently Ive been going different places watching Hamza play cricket, going cinema at least twice a week, watching a film a day.. having no reason to wake up in the mornings.. it probably sounds good to people that are in jobs, but it does become frustrating as life currently has no structure or routine, and may I just add the parents being on my case all the time, it just makes me do the opposite of what they want me to do, which is nothing. I can definitely say I have lost focus and I dont even know what I want to do anymore, I feel I have lost support from certain people but I guess everyone is for themselves in the end.

Its been a month since ive left London now, and I miss it, not missing it to the extent of going back, but miss my friends and family there, so IsA will be going next week to see them.

Sorry I know ive been moaning, but needed to let my feelings out and I guess that is a reason to blog.

… on the plus happy side of things, after nearly 4 years we are going on a Family holiday to Turkey, Antalya in September and I cannot wait, Im also looking forward to Ramadan starting, a time to reflect and IsA I will find my path.

until next time..

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Yep been at home for 2 weeks… and it still feels like a holiday, alot of people have asked me if I have regretted my move back to the wonderful Stoke-On-Trent but I dont, I love being back home, even though I do miss my family back in London, but it feels right being back here. Nothing beats the Countryside I tell ya! I have decided to help dad out with the family business, something I should of done along time ago, so lets see what happens.

Soo recently been back and forth to Manchester quite abit, Tariq and Adeel came to visit a few weeks ago which was nice, and on the weekend a few of us went to Stafford for Zahid’s ‘Surprise Grad Party’ which sorta flopped but didnt cause Zahid is so guilable haha! it was a lovely day

and.. Yesterday SPAIN won the world cup still buzzing about it!

Until Next Time…

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Zindagi Do Pal Ki
The life is just for two moments

Intezar Kab Tak Hum Karenge Bhala
How long shall I wait for you

Tumhe Pyaar Kab Tak Na Karenge Bhala
Till when should I stop myself from loving you

Zindagi Do Pal Ki
The life is just for two moments

Dil Mein Tumhari Chupa Di Hai Maine To Apni Yeh Jaan
I have hid my life in your heart

Abb Tumhi Isko Sambhalo Humein Apna Hosh Kahan
Now you got to protect it, for I lost my mind

Bekhudi Do Pal Ki
These restlessness of two moments

Zindagi Do Pal Ki
The life is just for two moments

Intezar Kab Tak Hum Karenge Bhala
How long shall I wait for you

Tumhe Pyaar Kab Tak Na Karenge Bhala
Till when should I stop myself from loving you

Ek Chotta Sa Vaada Iss Umar Se Zyada Sachcha Hain Sanam
Dear this small promise is more true than the life itself

Har Modh Par Saath Issliye Rahete Hain Ab Donon
That’s why both are together in every turn of life

Dosti Do Pal Ki
This friendship of two moments

Zindagi Do Pal Ki
The life is just for two moments

Intezar Kab Tak Hum Karenge Bhala
How long shall I wait for you

Tumhe Pyaar Kab Tak Na Karenge Bhala
Till when should I stop myself from loving you

Kites

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Hello All,

Big Ben

I know I dont blog much, its only because I am very lazy..

London

I have been in London for exactly 1 year and 7 months now. I started my journey by working for the Islam Channel, worked there for 2 months, then got offered a job with MINAB (Mosques and Imams National Advisory Board) and have been working there ever since. It seems like I have been here forever..  moving back to Stoke scares me a little but also excites me as well as I will be back home with my family, probably won’t get the same freedom, but I guess thats a sacrifice I am willing to make. So I need to find a new job now, which I know is going to be very difficult.

Zara, Me, Hana and Samah on the Tube

The tubes shocked me when I first came to London, its amazing how people literally squeeze themselves onto them, I actually saw a guy’s face and body flatten against the door once you could just see his squashed face, it was hilarious. People in London are so aggressive, people just push into each other without an apology and if you were to say sorry you would get totally ignored, good manners are totally forgotten

London Eye

.. I have seen the elderly and pregnant women struggle to stand in the tubes and not one person would give up there seat for them, the worst is when its really hot and its the most smelliest and disgusting place to be, people’s armpits are shoved in people’s faces… ewwww my mum even mentioned to me that I had started to become rude- London for you, it makes you arrogant when there is no reason to be.

Yeah so apart from that I have had some really good memories in London, countless random trips with my cousin Hana (Tinseltown, Snowman, Sheesh in the most wierd places, Cricket) Hana’s wedding time, Sabeena’s Birthday Trip, when Afsha, Hamira, Bini and Zara came to visit..

Zaina and Ibu

…the birth of my beautiful niece Maria, watching my niece and nephew Ibrahim and  Zaina grow up, spending time with my second family the Abbasi’s, Tariq and Karol coming to visit, Asjad coming to visit numerous times, Zahid coming a few times too..

Riz came and we randomly went for sheesh at Brick Lane oh and watched Arsenal at the Emirites Stadium…seeing Jazreena loads of times at Harrods and her always finding me in the MAC section haha, and more recently Zeynah and Chantelle came, meetings with old friends, making new friends, building a strong friendship with Jesskiran – don’t know what I would of done without her.

Me and Jess when it snowed

I just want to generally thank all the people who have been there for me throughout my time in London and making it memorable. I will miss the Abbasi family very much, they have done so much for me, they have supported and cared for me like there own daughter.

Hana

I am going to miss my london routine, walking to the train station, picking up the metro newspaper, grabbing a coffee, my 1 and 1/2 hour journey to work (always being late), leaving work late, then taking 2 hours to get home, I have no idea why it always takes me longer to get home then it does to get to work.. wierd..

I could go on but im not going to bore you further..

Maria

So I have less than 1 month left in London, and im definitely going to be making the most of it. Until next time..

Ta Ra!

Tags: Abbasi, Afsha, Arsenal, Asjad, Chantelle, Hamira, Hana, Ibrahim, Islam Channel, Jazreena, Jesskiran, Karol, London, Maria, MINAB, Sabeena, Sheesha, Stoke, Tariq, Tubes, Zahid, Zaina, Zeynah
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So im sitting in my London room figuring out what the hell im going to write about.. so I decided to touch on the subject of life.. had a really deep discussion the other day with my colleague about Life and Death, even though that subject really freaks me out and I hate talking about it, but its the subject that interests me the most.. It got me thinking, if we are only on this Earth to be tested shouldn’t I really start working to what matters in this life then worrying about stupid little things that will have no effect after this life is over. Life is a funny thing, it works in wierd ways, so many things go unexplained and its hard to figure out sometimes what is right and what is wrong, what about the subject of poverty and the rich where is the fairness in that? is it a further perception of hell and heaven?

If Heaven has no boundaries then how would heaven work? what is its purpose? what is it like? how would it run? what would we do everyday?… these are the kind of questions which run through my head time and time again… its hard to imagine life beyond now.. and I know its bad of me to say this but what if there is no life after this one. I know people may think its bad for me to think these things but I just wonder sometimes and just need that proof that everything is going to be ok.. I guess thats where faith comes in.

Anyway so I came to the conclusion that I need to learn and study the Qu’ran myself to get the reassurance I need and also to help me to get on that right path to work towards becoming that better person.

Well thats all for now…… Il be back soon..

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

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Whatever you want to call it.

Soooo I guess I have to start over because of Asjad.. I was really upset that all my blogs got deleted and I had a long one saved in drafts that I was ready to post.. it was all about my trip to Marrakech and I know you would of all been excited to hear about it

.. but Tariq correctly informed me that I hardly had any blogs anyway.. so yeah that made me feel loads better..

So this to a new blog.. hopefully better than before.

Im currently thinking of a theme to go with my blogs.. so yeah Il be back soon

-  Thank you Asjad for re-doing my site.. but yeah dont mess with the design next time..

Tags: Asjad, Marrakech, Tariq
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